Cedarwood Cowboy by Megan Slayer

Author:Megan Slayer [Slayer, Megan]
Language: eng
Format: epub
Tags: LGBT Romance Fiction
Publisher: Totally Entwined Group
Published: 2020-08-19T16:00:00+00:00

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Evan finished the chores and made it to the interview in plenty of time. He suffered through Remy’s questions, but at least Remy was nicer about asking. The previous reporters had wanted to run with the gay angle and make a big deal about his coming out being a publicity stunt.

Remy closed the notebook. “I’m not into country music, but Bobby is. He loves your stuff.”

“Thanks.” He hadn’t brought a marker to sign anything. He should get back into that habit.

“I haven’t asked this yet and it’s horrible of me, but how are you holding up?” Remy asked. “Your grandmother seemed like a great woman.”

“She was.” Evan sighed and a wave of exhaustion hit. Maybe he’d been through too much and he wasn’t sleeping enough, but damn, he was tired. “I’m not great, but I’m okay. It’s not a good time, but I’ve got Mick and I’ve got things to do. If I didn’t have the farm to keep me occupied, I could be in trouble.”

“Makes sense.” Remy nodded and toyed with the spiral wire on his notebook. “On top of everything else you’re dealing with, I know it’s tough to be gay in Cedarwood. We’ve all dealt with shit because we’re gay,” Remy said. “It does get better.”

“Does it?” He had Mick, so yeah, things were better.

“Have you been targeted?” Remy asked. “Has anyone done shit to you?”

“No, not that I know of. I had one of my farmhands quit because his mother realized I’m gay.” He shifted in his seat. “My boyfriend’s co-worker made the big deal with the media or no one would be the wiser about my sexuality.”

“I’m sorry. It’s no one else’s business to make a big deal about anyone coming out.” Remy shook his head.

The frustration he’d held back came forth and threatened to overwhelm him. “I don’t get it. Jesus. My grandmother just died. I’m dealing with the guilt of being gone, not taking care of her and that I’m alone, but all anyone cares about is that I’m a former country musician who is gay. I’m a human being.” He should’ve kept his mouth shut, but the words bubbled out.

Remy nodded. “And I’m no better. I’m sorry. I should’ve been more thoughtful. Are you okay?”

“No. One day I feel sort of normal and human. The next, I’m lonely. One day, it’s not hard to face the farm and my life. The next day, I want to hide and forget I ever played music.” Evan shook his head. “It’s crazy.”

“But you can’t forget music.” Remy nodded again and tucked the notebook away. “I wanted to quit writing because I got depressed. I’m glad I found Bobby and he helped me turn everything around. He kept me going. I probably would’ve found my way back to writing, but it wouldn’t have felt right.”

“Yeah.” Remy sort of understood. “I’m not on that road yet.”

“Mick isn’t encouraging you?”

“He is, but I’m still raw.” Music was in his soul, but he’d work on it later.

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